Hey you guys , this is my first blog and I don’t know if I am excited , because my current situation is really very bad  🙁 . I decided to start blogging because I think it will make me feel better so here is my story PS- you may not like it much. I am a really sensitive person , from the age of 6 I had a weak heart , I would cry for really small things , I remember when I was a third grader I cried because a guy told me that my lunch bag is ugly(yeah I was 7 years young so it was childish ). The real thing starts when I changed my school at 3rd grade , I left my old school because it was too strict and I suffered with that , . Well pneumonia had hit me two times  once at 3rd grade and once at 4th grade I was admitted at the hospital for like 40 days, both the times so I had to take a lot of leaves  for that . My classmates started judging me like I am a lazy sloth who doesn’t care about her studies ( my classmates are the worst people i’ve ever met , maybe except 2 or 3) . So, 5th grade was my nightmare there was this social teacher who always hated me for nothing well she was like racist sort  of person and pointed me out for everything I  couldn’t bare that anymore , once at last I went crying to my mom , my mom had a word with her the next day and then my social teacher started to act normal even though she had grudge on me from inside  . 6th grade was the time I started to harm myself ( yeah it is stupid for some people but I could not help myself ) there was this…

उदासी चेहरा ​हमारे समाज में स्त्री (नारी) को पुरूष के अर्द्धांगिनी के रूप में स्थान दिया गया है, जिसके बिना पुरूष किसी भी कर्त्तव्य की पूर्ति नहीं कर सकता यह भारतीय समाज का दुर्भाग्य है कि वैदिक और उत्तर वैदिक काल के पश्चात् हमारे समाज का मौलिक व्यवस्थाएँ रूढ़ियों के रूप में परिवर्तित होने लगी, फलस्वरूप स्त्रियों में लज्जा, ममता और स्नेह के गुणों को उनकी दुर्बलता समझकर पुरूषों ने उनका मनमाना शोषण करना आरंभ कर दिया। ऐसी प्रवृतियों को स्मृतिकारों और धर्मशास्त्रों का आशीर्वाद प्राप्त होने के कारण स्त्री धीरे-धीरे परतंत्र, निस्सहाय और निर्बल बन गयी। वैदिक काल, उत्तर वैदिक काल तथा धर्मशास्त्र काल में भी स्त्रियों को विश्वास दिलाया गया कि पति ही स्त्री के लिए देवता हैं और विवाह को उसके जीवन का एक मात्र संस्कार है। अनेक पौरानिक गाथाओं और उपाख्यानों को ईश्वर द्वारा रचित बताकर सतियों की कथाओं का प्रतिपादन किया गया। मनु-स्मृति में यहँ तक कह दिया गया कि स्त्री कभी भी स्वतंत्र रहने योग्य नहीं है, बचपन में वह पिता के अधिकार में, युवावस्था में पति के वश में तथा वृद्धावस्था में पुत्र के नियंत्रण में रहें। इस कारण से स्त्रियों की सम्पति के अधिकारों से पूर्णतया बंचित कर दिया गया और स्त्रियों के मानसिक रूप से ही अयोग्य तथा दुर्बल सिद्ध करने के अनेक भ्रमपूर्ण प्रचार किये गये।जब भारत में पहले पहल लड़कियों के लिए कुछ स्कूल खोले गये तो रूढ़ीवादी तबकों ने उसका जबरदस्त विरोध किया। किसी की हिम्मत नहीं थी कि वो समाज से लड़कर अपनी बेटियों को स्कूल भेंजे। स्कूल जाने वाली लड़कियों के परिवारों  का सामाजिक और जातीय बहिष्कार कर दिया गया। आजादी के बाद भी परिवार का मुखिया पुरूष था। घर को उसी के मर्जी पर चलना था। महिलाओं की सीमाएँ अब भी तय थी। घूंघट प्रथा भी जारी थी। मर्दों की दुनिया में शोषण और हिंसा की शिकार औरतों के बारे में किसी दार्शनिक ने कहा है कि ‘‘स्त्री दुनिया का आखिरी उपनिवेश है।’’ लेकिन आज…

i do not own image

                                                          People Ask                                                        an orginal poem   people ask people ask if im okay people ask why i dress the way i do people ask why i always wear jackets people ask why i hang out with those people people ask why i listen to the music i listen to people ask people ask way too many questions i ask i ask why i do this to myself i ask why you should care i ask why i should care i ask why im here i ask why i lie i ask why i say im okay i ask i ask way to many questions    

Sometimes thoughts are better left restrained.  Kindness puts duct tape over Pride’s mouth. Her hands are free, but out of respect she leaves it there. The lash of a tongue can cut your ego and slit your throat. Words that blacken your mind and bruise your lips, giving you every reason to take them to heart. Respect my kindness, because I gave my pride a filter out of respect for you. The frame is strong and the glass is clean. The picture is pretty, but you subtract your respect to learn your heart is petty. Love doesn’t have a sex but two of the same kind is what religion seems to be against. Am I a fool, for having a guy friend, who likes dudes? We shoot and we shame, cause different makes you distant. We all should love the same. Who told you to be different? I’m neither with it or against it. Why stop a heart that ventures out on its journey? It’s some things I’m still learning.  Our minds are five dollar toys cause they always tend to be played with. The Tv tells you what you need and what you want, so you’re easily persuaded this is a united nation.  When a black man bled, they turned their heads. Yet they wonder why angry sons scream “F THE FEDS!” Can words heal a nation?  I believe my words and thoughts make the perfect equation. I’ve been living for centuries. I am a recreation. My mind is old tomb stones and ruins.

What is the beginning? What is the start? It was definitely the big bang. It was the start of new life and hence the evolution of it. Everything and everyone has to start somewhere.   I was born on a Saturday in the evening. And hence my journey started. Life as we know it is still blooming and starting over everyday. All I want to say is that no matter what happened in the past, there is always an opportunity to start over now. It is upto you to grab this offer to begin in a new path. There will be consequences but always look for the positive results of your actions.         Be humble. Be kind. Be the master of your mind.

IT is well knowne unto the godly and judicious, how ever since the first breaking out of the lighte of the gospell in our Honourable Nation of England, (which was the first of nations whom the Lord adorned ther with, affter that grosse darknes of popery which had covered and overspred the Christian worled,) what warrs and opposissions ever since, Satan hath raised, maintained, and continued against the Saincts, from time to time, in one sorte or other. Some times by bloody death and cruell torments; other whiles imprisonments, banishments, and other hard usages; as being loath his kingdom should goe downe, the trueth prevaile, and the churches of God reverte to their anciente puritie, and recover their primative order, libertie, and bewtie. But when he could not prevaile by these means, against the maine trueths of the gospell, but that they began to take rootting in many places, being watered with the blooud of the martires, and blessed from heaven with a to take him to his anciente strategemes, used of old against the first Christians. That when by the bloody and barbarous persecutions of the Heathen Emperours, he could not stoppe and subuerte the course of the gospell, but that it speedily overspred with a wounderfull celeritie the then best known parts of the world, He then begane to sow errours, heresies, and wounderfull dissentions amongst the professours them selves, (working upon their pride and ambition, with other corrupte passions incidente to all mortall men, yea to the saints them selves in some measure,) by which wofull effects followed; as not only bitter contentions, and hartburnings, schismes, with other horrible confusions, but Satan tooke occasion and advantage therby to foyst in a number of vile ceremoneys, with many unproffitable cannons and decrees, which have since been as snares to many poore and peaceable souls even to this day. So as in the anciente times, the persecutions by the…